Have you ever felt overwhelmed by life and defeated by the fact that you just can’t do it all? I mean work, school, diet, excercise, family, friends – that is me today – I just feel defeated. I’m tired, I’m sore, I’m cranky…
Right now life feels hard – I reached out for help in a forum I belong to and didn’t get what I needed… or did I? It caused me to pause and do a bit of reflection and here is what I came up with…. my fitness starts with me. My happiness starts with me. No one can get me what I want out of life except for me.
My body hurts – of course it does, I’m not stretching – something in my control. Because my body hurts I am avoiding doing workouts that will get me the results I want physically – my dreaded thighs! Due to an illness last year I didn’t hit the gym for over two month – I had a phenomena that kicked the heck out of me… I have been struggling to get back. This of course has set my mental state to complete defeat – a tad dramatic I know. It’s summer and I don’t have the body I want, I’m embarrassed to wear shorts out in public again, but here is the thing – I don’t have to be perfect. I am human and have flaws.
It is all a vicious cycle – self doubt, insecurities, fears vs. love, acceptance and kindness. I need to flip the switch – and be kind to myself, as well as love and accept myself for where I am right now. Right now – I’m wearing board shorts to the beach – this makes me chuckle. Very simple and problem solved. I don’t need to continue to beat myself up. This simplistic approach works in other areas of my life too. If you are not willing to do the work – let it go. I have worried and worked hard on my physical appearance for a LONG time – I’m tired – my life is so much more that that today. Don’t get me wrong – I will get there again, but slow and steady.
My goal today is this – to be a kind person and to give back when I can. So here is my gift to you today and to myself. Look in the mirror and see past your physical appearance. Who are you? What do you bring to the world? What can you do today that will make you feel good about yourself? Today – I walked the dogs for two miles, I do everyday – something I can control and makes them happy, which makes me happy. I’m going to the chiropractor and getting a massage, something that will help with my aches and pains. I’m going to do some creative work around health and fitness, a passion of mine – and lastly, I’m going to stop beating myself up for not being perfect.